So I just finished watching “He's Just Not That Into You” and I surprisingly enough loved it, I totally identified with one of the main characters Gigi...who was this insecure girl always reading too much into every conversation and everything a guy does, and totally over analyzes everything in order to make him “the one”. Although I have recently only done that with friends, trying to make everyone out to be my new best friend. I guess it is that intense need to have a confidant that makes me trying and find one everywhere I go. I have known this forever, and I wish I could stop myself but I just haven't been able to. I do find comfort in the fact that at least now I am able to identify it and not let it affect me and take over my life like it has before. I talked about it in therapy this last week, and I definitely feel like I have grown in that regard, I mean I was not overly sensitive about the end of my friendship with my friend Nick...I just have to stop calling anyone I have hung out with more than three times my best friend, it is just getting so fucking sad. Like the love of my life, I know that someday I will find that guy that gets me and will love me for who I am, faults and all. Anyway, I need to get to bed, but I wanna share with you one of my favorite music videos, visually...and that is George Michael's Freek!
11 years ago
