So my one year off meth was last Sunday, and I sort of chickened out to go to the meeting I usually go to on Monday to take a cake for one year, but I finally got my balls back on Wednesday and decided to take a cake then, I also took a cake tonight at the meeting I started last November. It has been a great eye opening experience for me, to finally have my balls and bravery enough to go into a room with people who disagree with me, and judge me for my program, and take a cake and acknowledging that a year ago August, 30th I stopped getting fucked up on meth. It was truly an amazing experience having my mother, and sister here sharing with me their pride in me, they brought out a side of me that I hadn't seen in a while.
Something came to mind sometime this week while I was on my cake tour, and that is that not once in this whole year had I come close to doing meth. The last time I had a year, I had gone to my dealer's house twice, I went over to hang with someone who was using in order to get high once, and also I put a pipe in my mouth once, but thank God that the torch was out of gas, so I couldn't light it. This year I have had focus, and a purpose in life, and it has just been an incredible and amazing year. I am truly grateful for my cleanliness and the path that I am on now.
So I haven't posted a video in a while, and since it was my birthday I will be the musical theater dork that I am and love to be, last week on Tuesday I went to go see Legally Blonde: The Musical and I was expecting it to be mediocre and totally tacky, but it surprised me, very much like the movie it had a heart and some cute acting, so here is the opening number from it which I LOVE!
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