And I remember...

So 1 year ago today I was held up in my apartment, with bed sheets covering every single window in the place, I had been up for 7 days, I hadn't talked to my family in three weeks and I was all alone, just me, meth, porn, and the computer. It was the Friday of Labor Day weekend and I was taking a four hour break to start another long run, I am sitting on my filthy couch watching my TiVo crying my eyes out at a Law & Order: Criminal Intent episode when I hear a knock at my door. I think it's the police, not only because of my meth psychosis but also because there was a warrant out for my arrest. I saw this handsome face staring at me, I figured a cop, but no I open the door to see my brother in law and sister standing before me. I was half naked, reeking of meth sweat, piss, sex, lube, you name it I was covered in it. I didn't want them to come in because my place was such a gross mess, but they said they didn't mind and talked their way in. They told me that they loved me, and that I needed help because I was worrying the shit out of my parents, I cried uncontrollably for a while till we figured out a plan, we called the rehab I went to YEARS ago, Alternatives, and get assured that I could probably move in on Monday or Tuesday. They took me to a hotel to detox in North Hollywood, and they fed me. They stayed with me for two days, and then let me stay at my place alone, for one night before checking into rehab. Cut to, almost one year later (yesterday) when my mom, sister, brother in law and nephew all drove out to see me, and congratulate me on my year off meth. I have to say these have been two of the most amazing days I have had this last year. I got to hug, hold, and kiss my mamita and show her the man I have grown into. Today I got to show her even more, when she came to school to get her hair done by me, I usually hate doing all the Aveda rituals like massages, mini facials, and makeup touch ups but today I pampered my mother like there was no tomorrow. Seeing her face glow, and looking into her eyes and seeing not only pride, but also a sense of calm that her son isn't out there getting fucked up and disappearing for weeks on end. Seeing my family, and their happiness really reminds me of how many people I can affect with what I do, and it will surely keep me clean for a long long time.