And if you must be going, I will understaaaaaaaaaaand...

So a couple of days ago I got some mixed news. My best friend, who I have blogged about before, the one who was still out using meth, has been sent back to rehab (hurray) in San Francisco (awwwwwwwww). I guess it's really selfish of me to want him to stay in LA to make me happy. I guess my biggest fears are that he'll fall in love with San Francisco and he'll stay there, and that he may meet someone who he likes more than me as a friend. The first concern is not that hard for me, because San Francisco is only a 6 hour drive away, so we could always visit each other if need be, but the meeting someone who he would be better friends with is my biggest worry, it would totally break my heart. It was everyone's worry in rehab that I was only surrounding myself with him, which was a totally valid concern because I did make him the center of my universe for a while, but I do feel that I have been opening myself up to others for a while now. I have many friends in the program, and now even in school, but there is something about him that just always brings a smile to my face. He gets me and my sense of humor completely, he has also helped me in building my self esteem whether he knows it or not. His total lack of care for what others think of him totally rubbed off on me, he helped me grow into the man that I am today, and I would be extremely sad if I lost him. I guess I just have to leave the future up to God, and just cope with whatever happens, one day at a time.