So I was removing the battery from my car so that I can recharge it (I know very butch of me), and as I am under my hood, this guy I met at rehab (who left before he was supposed to) came up to me, and girl was cracked out of his head. I was of course stuck under the hood till I was done with my task, so I became a target for his verbal vomit. He proceeded to regale me with story after story about his drug use, the things he has to do to get his drugs, the gross people he has to put up with.
A couple of months ago that would have given me a raging boner, and I would've gotten all antsy and hungry to get high, but today it simply just annoyed the hell out of me. It also made me thank God for my sobriety, it is a big part of the program to be grateful for what you have, but it is so easy to forget, and to focus on what you don't have, or what you USED to have. For example, this past Sunday I went to the beach with a couple of sober friends, and it was a fucking blast! We walked out to the Santa Monica Pier, rode the rollercoaster, and had an all around great day. I got to know three amazing people who I didn't know that well, and enjoyed each others company, I am truly grateful for that day.
This morning we also had a very productive morning in the house, we had our house meeting were we bring up issues we may have with each other, and as high school-y as we all can be, it was a pretty grown up, we all brought up our issues and we discussed whatever things we thought were going on with ourselves. Luckily other than my not feeling so hot the last couple of days (which is why I haven't posted on here for a bit), I am doing pretty good. Anyway I am grateful for everything that God has provided for me today, especially my sobriety.
9 years ago
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