You're beautiful, you're beautiful, it's true...

So I have made this very shallow observation about myself, most of my friends are fucking drop dead gorgeous. I never knew I was so shallow, but apparently I am. I feel like most of my friendships start off with me having a crush on them, and basically winning them over with my shinning personality, honesty, and humor (of course). This is probably the reason why I have developed my Rhoda complex. I have been trying to cope with that complex a lot lately because all these people I have crushes on just don't feel the same way about me, and I guess I gotta learn how to cope with it, and I also gotta stop putting myself down. I just got a brand new haircut a couple of days ago, my usual summer haircut : a Mohawk; and I have not felt this sexy in a while, it's certainly a nice change of pace from how I felt being all clean shaven, and “normal” haired (which I had to be for the musical I was in). I finally feel like I'm bringing sexy back. I have also been thinking back to why I pick these friendships, I think identify with remoras...those are the small fish that always swim alongside sharks, and feed off the shark's leftovers. I feel like thats what I have been doing for years, just hanging out with these hunky sexy men, and then kinda just attract those they don't take. I know see this as not being exactly the healthiest thing for me to do for my self esteem, and even though I am not going to be dumping any of my friends because they are drop dead gorgeous, I will start working harder on being so comfortable with myself that no one will ever be able to bring me down, no matter what happens. Let's see how that works out for me...

Anyway it being Saturday, my video pick of the week is one of my favorite songs by a rock chic...here is Blondie with Maria!